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Fantasy♥

Hello, Fantasy
I've been searching for you
relief, peace, no chaos
but right now I'm stuck in 
just searching for you.

You feel so close yet not
close enough
I imagine not being in pain
I imagine laughing with my friends
not worrying about some attacks
in another country called
Syria

I believe, Fantasy, that you hold
the very day where I stand among
those who are called loved-ones
and I stand there not afraid
but rather happy and joyful
I see you in the far distance,
Fantasy.
Right now something is wrong
this home that we have
Is wrong. It's hurting right
now
I feel it in the deepest 
parts of my aching soul
But Fantasy, please...

I dream and search for you
Fantasy. 
You seem so unavaliable
You hold peace
no guilt
no shame
happiness, joy

But am I really just dreaming up
what you could be, Fantasy?
Are you really just a Fantasy,
Or are you so much more?

-H.E.♥
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Run Away Girl♥

Run away girl we are looking
for you
You have ran away from home
what do we do now

You skipped town
in the night with a bag
in hand
You are trying to escape
something
What are you trying to avoid
run away girl

You can’t out run your
problems
nor can you hide
they will follow you
even in your darkest 
or lightest times

You can face this my
run away girl
You can breathe through
this 
Come on Run Away 
Girl

Turn around
Face the truth
and fight the fight that’s 
hurting most

-H.E.♥


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Not Breathing♥

Suffocating
not breathing
drowning
fear
anxiety
overwhelming

these are the things
that I feel
I feel at peace
when I open my 
journal
and scribble the mess
that's going on in
my life

I feel sick sometimes
scared even
a little terrified
but when I'm looking at
the masterpieces
God is creating in the
sky
I can't help but attempt
to ground myself.

Senses 
peace, no anxiety
is where I'm at my best
not fearing the worst 
and craving the best.

-H.E.♥


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HomeTown♥

Blue River
soccer fields
Drive in
Cabells
DQ and Kroger

These are all a part of
what I like to call my 
hometown

Small and quiet
slightly dramatic
Busy and Slow
a little bit of both

Taco Bell, McD's 
Taproom and the Pub

We take pride
in the Golden Bears 
and the story we all read
in the 3rd grade
about how
Shelbyville 
came to be

This is my hometown
small and busy
quiet and slow
Food to eat 
and too many banks 
to count

Close friends
the world seems so small
welcome to the hometown
of the corn festival
or the Blue River Festival
Booths and food
Play slides
and Sunset Park

Welcome to the home 
of the Golden Bears 
Comets, Bull Dogs
and the Hurricanes
Welcome to the town
that I like to call
Home.

-H.E.♥


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Mess Up♥

I hate messing up
is it all i can do
i hate hurting
people
let alone hurting
someone like
you

It hurts me and i cant
contain it
I didn’t mean to make you
feel hurt
if that’s how you feel 
anyway

Maybe you’re okay..?
I can only 
pray

-H.E.♥


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Relief♥

I suffocated
I drowned
I felt the burning in my lungs
feeling like I was
dying

But my safe place
was just in reach
Relief--

That feeling I get in my 
Safe Place
Where I see God
in all of his Glory
I realize he loves me
He pushes away every fear
every nerve that
is suffocating me.

Instead I become
Overwhelemed in his great
Love

Love so strong 
I fall to my knees
I am so weak
But as a Daughter
Of the God of the Universes
I realize it isn't my strength
But his Instead.

-H.E.♥


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Panic Room♥

Anxiety Fear
breathing
suffocating
what is this

My head is spinning
I think I'm crying
My heart is hurting

Is this what it feels like?
Pain and suffering?
Because I can't handle it

I hate feeling that way
not breathing

I hate feeling scared 
I hate feeling like an
Outsider

I don't want to feel
panicked 
But I can't help what scares me
Breathe

Ground your self
Find your Safe Place
otherwise get stuck in your
Panic Room.

-H.E.♥