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Little Words♥

i have little words
only few to type-
to write along lines
words making verses
verses making a story-
not compelling
only interesting
i have lttle words
i'm sorry to dissapoint
but poems come 
as they go-
here are my little words-
few to share-
many wish to be said
in a story to be made-
forever lost in a mind
that must be lost
to the grave itself.

-H.E.♥


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Wake Up♥

It's about time.
I'm waking up.
time to reach over and grab on
grab hold of what's true
not what's not

Breathe in and breathe out
I know I'm still struggling
just to do so.
I haven't forgotten
how so loved I am

But, when is it my time
when am I gonna realize
When am I going to breathe 
easy

You look me in the eyes,
I'm nervous.
You're telling me how special
I am
You love me
And I truly love you.

When do I get my chance
to breathe
no panic, no time to be scared
Who knows?

I guess I'll just keep waiting
because you say
"Not Yet"

-H.E.♥


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Confusing♥

Confused, dear
That is what I am as I stare
I stare at the ground drowning out
chaos, while learning the patterns
maybe, I'm just searching for a little
peace in the midst of nonsense

Too many names
Too many faces, all having to be 
memorized
Who are you again?
I really get lost.
Looking into the eyes of so many
simply trying to understand how they 
function

Who do I bump heads with
Who am I annoying to
Who may be a friend in the months to come
I am really getting 
confused-

I prefer to be behind the Curtain
Listening and not acting
I'd rather look from the side rather
than looking straight on
Why are they pushing.
Why are they so confusing
I need consitency and this is not-

I need peace
and a little quiet
too many people 
Squishing into one little space
But what's his name again?
Oh... I don't know.

-H.E.♥


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Fantasy♥

Hello, Fantasy
I've been searching for you
relief, peace, no chaos
but right now I'm stuck in 
just searching for you.

You feel so close yet not
close enough
I imagine not being in pain
I imagine laughing with my friends
not worrying about some attacks
in another country called
Syria

I believe, Fantasy, that you hold
the very day where I stand among
those who are called loved-ones
and I stand there not afraid
but rather happy and joyful
I see you in the far distance,
Fantasy.
Right now something is wrong
this home that we have
Is wrong. It's hurting right
now
I feel it in the deepest 
parts of my aching soul
But Fantasy, please...

I dream and search for you
Fantasy. 
You seem so unavaliable
You hold peace
no guilt
no shame
happiness, joy

But am I really just dreaming up
what you could be, Fantasy?
Are you really just a Fantasy,
Or are you so much more?

-H.E.♥


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Not Breathing♥

Suffocating
not breathing
drowning
fear
anxiety
overwhelming

these are the things
that I feel
I feel at peace
when I open my 
journal
and scribble the mess
that's going on in
my life

I feel sick sometimes
scared even
a little terrified
but when I'm looking at
the masterpieces
God is creating in the
sky
I can't help but attempt
to ground myself.

Senses 
peace, no anxiety
is where I'm at my best
not fearing the worst 
and craving the best.

-H.E.♥


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Childhood♥

I look back
staring at the person I
used to be
I used to be a child 
who found joy in every little
thing

I look at me now
I wonder what happened
I've grown up
I don't do what I used to
I found new joys, but
I've kept some
I smile replaying all of my
memories

Who doesn't remember their childhood
the one where the were
awful memories and 
joy-filled memories
I remember my childhood
just like it was yesterday
Maybe-   because it was
My childhood consists of every
memory I have ever created
It consists of every memory I ever
will have

Your childhood never ends
it keeps on going 
-so look up
smile a little.

-H.E.♥


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The More♥

The more I look
the more I sing
the more I study
the more I see

I see God...

I look into science
and find more and more
of Him.

It's as if science
confirms
that God is as true as 
the sun in the sky
or the grass in the fields-

He gets bigger everyday in
my little eyes
I wish I could understand,
but I know I can't
One day I'll be face to face
with You
And I can't wait to ask You
every question that runs
through my head

-H.E.♥


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For Grace♥

I need to tell
you...
I-
I can't breathe 
because you hold
my heart
you keep it beating
your love 
is beyond imaginable

Your smile lights up my day
and your voice
is a soft as 
feathers
I get chills when I
think about the
way you care

You're someone
i rely on
I lean to you
as a support
like a crutch

You break my heart 
in all the right ways
you keep me sane
and keep me still

Your wisdom shines
like a light in the
dark

When I'm crying
i know i don't have 
to
you're drying them
for me
you tell me I'm loved

You hold me up 
and carry me when 
I can't on my own

You're my grace 
when i'm stressed

you're a sister
In christ above
you're connected to
me
by heart and love 
and nothing more

-H.E.♥